Things I miss about Jason the most:
1. His hugs
2. His smile
3. The way he would pour his cereal before he went to bed and put a paper towel over it. He would also lay out his spoon as well as 3 splenda packets to sweeten the cereal. Not 2, not 4, but 3 every night. He would lay everything out the night before so he could be as quiet as possible when eating his breakfast at 5 a.m. He had to be in surgery by 6 a.m. He was so considerate... always.
4. Seeing his work shoes at the back door. He would never wear them inside b/c he didn't want to bring GERMS in from the hospital. Only Jason.
5. Walking through the den and seeing Jason watching the History channel. WHY??? I would always ask him why he wanted to watch this channel and his response was always..."it's something smart people do, Stephanie." :)
6. Seeing the kids watch a movie with their daddy and hearing him laugh out loud at them. He loved Disney movies as much or more than they do. B/c of that we own almost ALL of them!
7. Hearing the back door slam in the afternoon and knowing it was Jason coming in which was always followed by the kids screaming, "daddy!!"
8. The way his cologne smelled on him. I can smell the bottle now, but it doesn't smell like it did on him.
9. I miss his laid back attitude about EVERYTHING. Nothing ruffled Jason too much other than Jon Brent's whining and my obsession with politics and children's clothing. Ha! He chose not to 'be involved' like I get during political campaigns. More about that on a later day.
10. I miss EVERYTHING about Jon Jason Weathers.
14 comments:
Stephanie, your post teaches each of us such a valuable lesson, and that is that we should all appreciate what we have right now, for we never know when it will be too late. Obviously, you appreciated sweet Jason during his life....easy to tell, just by the way you write about him, but I am quite sure that now, you feel as if you didn't let him know that enough. With each of your therapy sessions, I am utterly amazed at the young woman you are...not wallowing in self-pity, just talking from the very core of your being about the loneliness, the fears, the frustrations of dealing with life and three children alone, but ALWAYS showing us where your Strength is coming from, and always praising God for His ever-present love for you. Thank you once again for jolting me into an awareness of the importance of expressing appreciation every single day, while I have a chance to do so. My prayers are with you constantly, as they are with JM, Peggy and Brad. Love, carolyn laster
The little things seem to be the ones that jolt us the most. The big things of life are expected to be missed, but the not so noticed idiosyncrinces of a life tend to throw us off and for good reason. They are the evidence of a life lived beside us, near us, all around us, and when something that is counted on to be there every day is not, it is shocking.
I pray that although the little things are missing, that you are able to remember each and every one.
Praying for you still,
Shasta
May you always be reminded of the love Jason had for you. Hold on to those sweet precious memories. An angel is watching over you.
Funny how those things you miss about J are the same things I would miss about Steve. (except shoes at the back door and his cereal laid out) Steve does however, love The History Channel! And I think he watched more of the Disney movies than I did...especially The Parent Trap (original)
I am so glad you can list these things...it's so good to see our thoughts on paper...or blognet!
I think Steve will miss me putting out his coffee cup, knife, plate, peanut butter and his travel mug every morning...and I thought I only didthose kinds of things...(my Sunday morning facepainting accessories are already laid out in the bathroom) We are such funny creatures aren't we!
Love you...check out Shana's blog w/new pics of my grands...
www.nomansland.blogspot.com
Joy for a worship day tomorrow!
Ms Debi
Sorry Steph...Shana's blog is
www.dantzlercrew.blogspot.com
I love the history channel comment. Made Clay & I laugh out loud.
Still praying for good sleep. I'm adding to my prayer that you'll have a fresh wind of God blow over your heart & mind tomorrow during worship. I know how much you love to worship Him and I know how much He loves it when you do.
Love you,
Kristen
Things I miss about J:
1. that he accepted me for who I was(tough one, I know) He might shake his head at me but that was about it.
2. how the kids would let him do elective surgery on them if he wanted to; they trusted him so much
3. Just hearing him talk
4. Everything
Remember when J got hair implants (J had a bit of a hair growth problem in case you didn't know) I see him leaving mom's one day and asked him where he was going. He said he was going to get a haircut. Of course, I thought that was hilarious. He just shook his head and said, "It really does grow Brad". Gotta love him.
Stephanie, your post was so touching. I could put checks by some and change a little of them, but know exactly where you're coming from. It's the little things that you miss the most. I kept a special shirt and when I need a "hug" I just wear it. It helps, try it.
love, hugs, and prayers
I too as always am blessed by your writing. I'm going to send the history channel comment to my daughter Michelle. Her husband loves to watch it. He too is smart! I want to send an amen to elane's comment about the T-Shirt. When my sister first asked me if I wanted any of my dad's clothes after he passed away, I thought NO WAY... makes me too sad. I have 2 of his sweaters. Everytime I put them on... there is a real hug like comfort. I'm so glad to have them now. I say all that to say, take your time with such decisions and choices. Everything hurts now and there will always be an emptiness, but little by little you will find that you can handle the sadness because you are thinking about a great memory of a great person. I miss his smile too! Love, Janice
Stephanie,
Every time I come here and read your list, it makes my heart heavy for you and reminds me to continue to appreciate all that I still have. I would miss every single thing you mention and more. I often put on Corky's cologne in the morning and it reminds me of him all day long. I know, some have told me I am silly but after 40 years married, he is on my mind and in my heart all day long. I wear his big shirts and sweatshirts too when I get cold. I have my own but his are more yummy. I love you girl and my prayers continue for you each day in the Lord. Praying for the kids too. Hope you are settling in to the new house and it feels like home.
Love and Hugs, Laurie in Ca.
Somehow, I got to your blog yesterday. I read everything and then guessed at your Caringbridge name and got it. I have read the whole story. I want you to know it has ministered to my heart greatly. Jason's story has helped to repair a part of my soul that has been torn for a long time. I will keep you and your children and family in my prayers daily. Thank you for allowing me the privilege of reading both this site and the Caringbridge one. May you be blessed beyond measure for your testimony and staying true to the one and only, Jesus himself!
How sweet, Mrs. Stephanie. I love you guys and continue to keep your family in our prayers. Jon Brent was so sweet the other night when I was babysitting your kids. He talked and talked about how much he loves his daddy who's in Heaven with Jesus. He told me how much he loves cars, so I said...maybe he's playing cars with Jesus right now. His response: NO he's not! Jesus and Daddy are walking around in Heaven, silly! :) That really made my day! I love you all so much!
How sweet, Mrs. Stephanie. I love you guys and continue to keep your family in our prayers. Jon Brent was so sweet the other night when I was babysitting your kids. He talked and talked about how much he loves his daddy who's in Heaven with Jesus. He told me how much he loves cars, so I said...maybe he's playing cars with Jesus right now. His response: NO he's not! Jesus and Daddy are walking around in Heaven, silly! :) That really made my day! I love you all so much!
Stephanie,
Thank you so much for breaking my heart this morning after catching up with your blog, after a few days. Thank you for reminding me that there are some things I would miss about my husband, Yogi. That didn't sound right . . . there are many things I would miss, but it's the simple things that we take for granted. I relate so much to what you said a while back about the cool weather bringing back so many memories. I lost my sister on October 12th in 1988 and the cool weather stills brings back very poignant pains that I guess I will never get over. You kinda get used to it and the pain becomes a comfort. Hang in there girl, you are doing a mighty work! :)
Regina Breland (rbreland@tbclife.net)
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